I haven’t really had any of these in a while. I was getting really creative and all for a little while there. There were some short stories and a few songs working their little ways out of my brain. Then, what? What happened in order to stop this creative flow?
Answer: Nothing. I just stopped. I didn’t make time for being creative. Somewhere in the back of my itty bitty brain I told myself that it was nonsense because it wasn’t productive. BULL-O!!!!
I need to push myself. I am supposed to be a creative being. Why? Well, if I was created in God’s image and He desires that my character resemble His, then, just as He is THE Creator, I, too, should be creative. He has talented me with the ability to write, play, and perform music. I shouldn’t piss on His blessings. If I just consider it a waste of time, then I am pissing on God’s character and creativity.
So is my lack of creativity (which is what God has called me to do) a cause of my family’s struggles? If, by my actions, I am telling God that His plan for me sucks, then it probably won’t be long and He will say something like, “You know what, there is another person that I have given talents to. I’ll bless them with what you should have received and I’ll remove my hand (protection) from you.”
So why do I do this? Fear? Lack of time? Lack of ideas? Lack of trust with my finances? Not wanting to disappoint those around me? Afraid that God will want to take me away from the area I grew up in and take me somewhere I’ve never even heard of? Disbelief that God wants to use a schmuck like me to do anything other than just to take up space? ANSWER: All of the above
So where is my accountability in this? It is YOU. Those reading this blog whether you read every entry or whether you are just glancing passed and don’t know me from Albert Einstein’s-cousin’s-mother’s-grandson’s(on the paternal side)-domesticated wolf-hound. You are my accountability. Anyone with an ear and can hear.
So I’m making this public. (Well, as public as this forum is…) I must write music. I must play/perform this music. It is what God is calling me to do. Whether I play in the church or in the streets or on a stage, it is my call. It is my character and my purpose. Hold me to it.
15 And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful. 16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom, teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord. 17 And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.
Colossians 3:15-17 (New King James Version) New King James Version (NKJV) Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson, Inc.
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