I live in the city. I mean, smack dab in the middle of it. two blocks west is the industrial part of the city. Three blocks north, offices and warehouses and more business stuff. One block south…architect firms, doctor's offices, the ASO office, and more. Two blocks east…the park. So I live all around it and it around me. But tonight is somehow a little different. Maybe its something to do with knowing that we have another baby on the way. Maybe it is just the end of a fairly productive day. Could be anything right about now, but tonight is a little different.
Here it is, 12:30 a.m. and I'm sitting out on the front porch of the house. All I can hear are some bugs (crickets and things), a train in the distance (Paul Simon probably won't get a royalty off of that mention), the faint sound of constant traffic on the interstate that is about 18 blocks away and a slight breeze from the east. It is just enough to make a few leaves rub together and make a sound. The sky is ever so slightly clouded, but still clear. It is peaceful outside. No police sirens…No ambulance…No gunshots or other “city sounds.” It is peaceful tonight. As I slowly breathe in and out, meditating on each breath, I feel the day's stress exiting my body…the anxiety I had earlier just releasing breath by breath. It is in moments like this that I am focused. It is moments like this where I feel I can hear God. I am so thankful to be alive today…something I would never imagine that I would say even a few months ago. I am pleased with my wife, my daughter, our new baby. I am thankful that God stands on His promises even though we back out on ours. He truly has not forsaken us. This is odd to me. Well, not really odd, exactly, but definately not something that I am familiar with.
So here I am, just me and a bunch of words flowing through my mind and through my fingertips. I am tired, but not exhausted. I am happy, but not overly so. I am excited about the future, but am trying just to live today. I want to live and stand on God's promises for today. I am not promised tomorrow. I can only praise God in this moment. So I will.
So I will.