5 years old

On October 22 of the year 2002, there was a very amazing thing that happened. Most people are like, “whatever,” but for me it was wonderful.

It all took place at a church band practice on a Tuesday night. We were practicing for the upcoming Sunday’s p.m. worship set. After a few tunes Pastor Rodney led us in a soulful prayer time. Just on our faces before our Creator, the Holy One. After a little time and a few circumstances I walked to the front of the church where we had been practicing. It was around 11:15 p.m. I looked around and said, “I don’t know how to say this, but God is telling me that I’m not a Christian. I want to become one.”

The guys prayed over me and hugged and wept with me. It was an amazing time.

So where am I now? How have I grown? Well, I haven’t grown as much as I needed to or could have. I am still fighting the trust factor of all of the facets of life. I don’t study the truth everyday…or every other day…or consistantly at all. My prayer life is weak.

God is my strength. I have close friends that remind me to trust God. I have a wife that shows me compassion and altruistic love. I have a daughter that teaches me that dependance on God is a beautiful and intimate thing.

Fellow Christians- continue on the path set forth and set in motion by the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

5 years today

I got your letter that you sent to us. I know that it wasn’t finished. I think you knew something was going to happen. You had that intuition with hearing God that way.

You lived a life that was amazing and wonderful. You lived for Christ like no one I’ve ever seen. I was there a few days before you died. I listened to the stories of how you loved others and in turn, that changed lives. One story was of you working at the Cato store for women. If memory serves me right, there were about 25 employees. Yourself being the only one even wanting to believe in God. Within fairly short time, a year or two I think, all of your fellow employees were professing Christians. Its just how you lived.

You are not forgotten! Your name, well, your nickname lives on today. You have greatgrands now. I know that Joshua and Robert have had kids, their wives have anyway. Kris and Laura have little Ben, and Raygen and I have Bonnie. Yes, she was named after you.

I’m not sure if you know, but I’ll tell you on this public forum.

After you died, I began to hear the stories of how you lived. It changed my life. I realized that how I lived didn’t even begin to line up with your example. You died on Sept 10, 2002. I became a Christian on October 22, 2002. I keep quoting the scripture in John 15 that Christ says, “Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. ” I know that is what you did. By seeing the way you lived, the fruit of your life and the effectiveness of your convictions, I, too, follow in the way of the one, true God.

I miss you. I miss your jokes and your singing into one of those silly kid microphones that have the spring in it. I miss your stories. I miss your hugs and kisses. I miss eating your German Chocolate Cake and drinking diet Pepsi with it. I miss the way your perfume smelled. I miss your laugh and your quick-wit. I miss your unmistakeable love for us.

I know you are busy worshipping our Father in Heaven. I look forward to the day we can all join in together. Until then, I love you…

Memorial Fun

Shady and I finally our anniversary this weekend. We actually had time to spend time together. I know that some people get caught up in the moment and spend lavish amounts of money on dinners and hotels and getaways, but I knew what my Shady loves…water. We had already pre-determined that our anniversary would be one of three/four times we would step away from the vegan eating. So here is how it all went down for the weekend…

We slept in as much as possible and took our time getting ready.
We dropped off the little bear @ Nana’s around 11:30 a.m.
We hopped in the Silver Sloth and drove to OM State Park.
We found our way to the lake and there they were. In all of their glory. The water shimmering and the docks swaying as the wind and water pressed and released it’s hold.
We parked as Shady shrilled with excitement and wonder.
Why? Paddleboats. One hour, just the two of us, surrounded by water and beauty and majesty that God created.
We talked about what God has done over the past 4 years.
We laughed…we teared up…we splashed each other…
Then we cruised around OM for a little longer. We found the fishing spot and were going to rent a couple of fishing poles (even though I don’t like to fish) but they don’t rent them out. So we loaded back up and zipped on the TGIFriday’s for a meat-a-palooza and dessert-a-holic meal.

We finally went to pick up little bear at about 7 30 or so. We hung out @ Nana and Gruff’s for a while longer and then took off to the house.

It was one of the best days I’ve ever had with Shady.

I love you, sweetheart. You are my heart’s desire.