I was reading a buddies blog during lunch today. He made some really good points in his entry today. He was mentioning that life, for him and his family, is a little up-in-the-air as of recent.
Where? When? How? These are some of the questions he proposes. Over the weekend, I have been pondering over the same questions…”ironic, don’t you think?” Actually I’ve been wondering and asking myself these questions for a lot longer than that. Bishop Andy, my pastor, brought some light to a lot of this yesterday. Ephesians 4:1 “…I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.” Now it goes on to tell you how to do that…in meekness, humility, and bearing with one another. So what does that look like for me. I know what God has called me to in life. There are things that people are telling me though that confuse the crap out of me. One person (a person I highly respect) tells me that whether it is now or when I make it in the “big time” that he wants to support me no matter what. Yet another person (that I respect and is close to me) says another thing that is not along the same path. What then? So I guess I play gigs for fun…Lead worship at DTC and whatever transpires just transpires?
I think this. I’ve never really done anything full force except for recently. I’ve basically done enough to show progress but just enough where I don’t get blasted. When I started working 70+ hours per week, I had to keep everything afloat…not just barely above water. That whole process taught me something. Why should I spread myself so thin? I don’t have to. I should work beyond the best of my ability and lean on God for the additional strength and understanding.
Now that I have cut back the hours, I honestly feel paranoid that I’m not working and going full speed ahead. So do I cut back and chill? Heck, no! I concentrate my efforts. Work as diligently and I did when I worked 70+ hours. Just fit that effort into 45+ hours of work and the other things that are coming up for me and the fam.
So here goes! Let’s rock it and roll it and study it and whatever else it!!!