I have debated for a long time whether or not I should use such a public forum for such a private matter. It has been a long time of just trying to filter through all of the stuff and find peace in the storm. This is the main reason it has been such a long time since my last blog entry.
As I have been carrying all of the baggage over the past months, I have wondered what other have been through. I mean, the subject matter of this blog (which I will visit in just a bit) is not the easiest to speak about let alone throw out into the public…but I have been wanting to know what other like myself have done.
Now, let me preface this blog with this: Even though this entry is written with a bit of hurt remaining, it is not my intention to hurt others. If you are looking for gossip, then please hit the “Next” button up at the top of this page.
My lovely and I served at a church in our area for about 9 years. Now we were not pastors of the church but we were heavily involved. We loved and served our church faithfully. Several months ago the church had its last meeting. Now, the details of why the church dissolved are actually irrelevant at this point (especially concerning this blog). There are many families and friends from said church that are still in close relationship and that has been helpful. But the thing I have been wrestling with is…
Where do we fit in?
I understand the references in the Bible about being transplanted or grafted into relationship to Christ or the body of believers. (Actually, just thinking about it, there seem to be a lot of farming references…especially in the New Testament.) So when one begins to find a new body of believers, how can you fit in? I know that my family felt so grafted in that we never felt as if we would be able to belong to another body. Yet we find ourselves in the place that we thought we would never see. Another church.
I understand that God gifts us all differently according to His design. We all serve a purpose whether we acknowledge it or not. But when you know that you are gifted to do hands-on, elbows-deep ministry, how do you start all over? How do you head back to home base after you have been fighting in the trenches or on the front lines?
I would really like your input on this. If you do not wish to comment here, please feel free to message me directly. Again, my desire is not to cause hurt…only to gain some insight. And hopefully, from that insight will be a little nugget of wisdom.
As for all of those who seek God’s face and desire to see the Kingdom of God advanced, I pray for you a prayer of protection and God’s guidance. For those who do not know God or do not care to know Him, I pray for you as well. Just that God will prosper you and keep you until the time He reveals his love for you…
Thank you and I look forward to your responses.